HaPpY HaLlOwEeN!!!

mmm.....candy.....mmm.....

Today was a decent day. I spent most of the day preparing for my halloween party 2morrow. The basement has never been so clean!! lol. and i helped cook...a little bit...so yeah...there will be lotsa food. Friday night i had ran around shopping and geting things. Oh! And my power was OUT yesterday! When i got home from school, there was no power...i was like...wtf?? My mom said it had went out around 1pm...it came back i guess around 8:30pm while we were out shopping. But it was just my street that was out....and freakin PEPCO of course takes their good old time comin out here. i wanna change power companys!!!

Lets see....thats all really i did today....slept alot...i like to sleep...

The dog is doing decent i guess. I got her to drink some water and to eat a few of her doggie bacon treats. She has big trouble going up and down stairs now. We went outside w/ her and she lied around there for awhile. Then she even started digging a hole! i was like...hhmm...maybe shes getting a lil better! But then when i tried to take her back inside, she tried climbing the stairs and couldn't, so she lied down and rested a little bit, then she was able to come in. Her energy goes so quickly. She just looks sooo sad. o well...shes still alive for now. poor Penny...

hey all. today was a considerably better day than yesterday. No crazy stuff going on at lunch again..geez...so glad about that!

Today's swim team conditioning was great...nice and easy, yet fun. We played soccer w/ a flat basketball and two super old hockey nets. yup...thats our low-budget school system for ya! lol..it was really fun...i miss soccer. I played on a team for about 6 years when i was younger, but my freakin bad knees kept getting messed up, so now i've sort of given up contact sports...at least on a competetive basis. I still love those sports tho...soccer rocks..

School itself was decent...started falling asleep halfway through calculus...bad move. The last 10 minutes of class we were given a classwork assignment, but the problem we had to solve was similar to the examples we had just gone over: unfortuately i had only copied the first 2 of 3 example problems, then started dozing off....and as u have probably guessed; it was that 3rd example that could have helped me w/ my classwork. just my luck...

Afterschool, i was gonna go to tutoring for calculus, but then found out that all senior athletes were to go to the "senior lounge" to hear about the Clearinghouse and all that good stuff. Its all a lil confusing to me...i dont know if i shoul get an application for that or not. I mean...i dont really plan on playing varsity sports in college. Ill probably play club or intramural sports...but varsity...im just not that competetive, and i dont wanna practice or get too much into that. Though...after that meeting..i sorta wanna play in college. I can't believe this may be my last year swimming competetively!! ima miss this team.. :(

My dog is still very sick...i dont think there is any hope for her. Now we are just sort of waiting for her to die. I've been petting her and hanging out w/ her alot more lately....i mean...i always play w/ my dog...but now i spend alot more time w/ her. I got her to drink some water, and to eat a little rice, and some applesauce. She hardly eats or drinks anymore, so i was happy i got her to eat that much. She just looks soo sad! My mom is staying home from work tomorrow to look after her. My mom said that when she came home from work, the dog was outside and couldn't figure out how to get back in. Shes also having lotsa trouble with stairs...mayn...she looks sooo sick! i cant stand this!!
I heard my parents talking about whether or not we should get another dog if (or when) she dies. I dunno how i feel about that. I love my dog...i cant just replace her!! But i think i would like another dog...i just like having her follow me around, or sitting there, or having her to play w/. Its already weird w/ my dog being sick...after school i would take out the trash or something, and before i come back inside i'd throw a tennis ball and she'd fetch it for awhile, or i'd chase her around the yard...lol. its so weird how she just lies around now. gosh darnit....im so mad at this....

yup....my poor dog is dying. The vet doesn't know excatly what she has, though it might be some form of cancer. Cancer!! I didn't know dogs could get cancer!

She hasn't eaten in awhile...i got her to eat half a cup of applesauce...she won't eat anything else. She hardly moves now, and it looks like it takes alot of her strength just to stand up. When she lies down, she sort of flops over like shes in pain.

Whatever she has, i think its too far along to do anything about it. She is bleeding internally...i dunno why. The vet says they could try some massive blood transfusions, but that would put her in more pain, and probably won't do any good. So...yeah...i dunno whats next. I hate to say it, but if she is going to die i wish she would die real soon. I hate seeing her like this...she looks so sad!! Either that or get better fast...but i dont think she's gonna get better.

Did i ever mention that this year sucks???

Hey all. Okay...i got a very important Calculus test tomorrow, so ima make it real short...

Lets see...today was a pretty boring day in skool. All my classes were just about equally mundane (SAT word...see?? MUNDANE: ordinary, boring. Now TELL ME WHY did i get a 560 verbal score ALL THREE times i took the SAT?! huh?? lol) lol, though when i was going to productions/systems...i walked into the tech building. As soon as i walked into the door, there were like 4 guys standing there smoking. I walked in and was like...awww shiz...i dont see nuthin....and i walked down the hall and went to open the classroom door...and it was locked!! So im standing there in the hallway while these guys are standing there smokin...i mean REALLY smoking...put it this way: it was like walking into a heavy fog...THATS how bad it was...lol. Luckily like 2 minutes later the bell rang and they left, then Brittany came in the hallway and we opened a side door trying to get in some fresh air. i tell u guyz....SAY NO TO DRUGS!! smoking not cool mayn...kills ur lungs...

Speaking of this, my poor dog is sick!! I feel so bad for her!! About 2 weeks ago, she started eating less and less...and then yesterday she barely ate at all! Today i dont think she ate ANYTHING!! And she doesn't play anymore...she just lies around and sleeps or stares at you. She might follow me into my room, but then she just lies down. She looks soo sad! She's usually running around and i'll play ball w/ her and she loves going on walks... Sometimes ill go to the tennis courts and bring her, and while i play she runs around stealing the balls. Well, we went to play tennis on saturday, and she ran and caught like two balls, then she just went to the corner of the court and lied down. She looks so bad!

So my dad just got back from taking her to the vet. It doesn't look good. The vet doesn't know whats wrong with her yet. Though, he took a blood test...the results will come back tomorrow, but the vet commented that her blood was really really watery and thin...not good. And when he looked at her eyes, he said that she is "a very sick dog." Things are looking pretty bad for her right now. My dad is talking like she's about to die. I'm like...NOOOO! Shes only like....6 years old i think! I'm no pet expert...but im pretty sure the average life span for golden retrievers is somewhere around 10-12 years!! She's only like...halfway there! So...yeah....im sorta blown about that. Dogs are like a part of the family, ya know??? i know they aren't people....but u play w/ them and take care of them and they just make u feel so safe and are always there. I really hope this is just a cold or somethin...(can dogs get colds??) but i really dont know...

Hey all! Its Sunday! geez...this is gonna be a busy day. So much stuff to do. I need to finish English....im going to find supplies for my RP project today...we are having an unofficial swim practice later on...
and i have to clean the basement...and im working on college applications...AAHH! lol

Mayn...the october SAT information is now available online...that was my last time taking it. My final SAT score will be a 1140. I have a 560 verbal and a 580 math. I was a little mad...i took the SAT three times...my verbal was always exactly the same...560. darnit. o well...it shows im consistant..right?? lol